A Time To Be Together.... A Time To Part

This past weekend was the most special of all. I spent the weekend at Roanoke Rapids, NC with my dear friends Travis and Jessica along with their parents. It was the best weekend ever but it had to come to an end when Travis drove me back to Lynchburg today. I will write about the weekend in full when I put up my next blog because this night is turning out to be a hard night. It will be my last night here in beautiful Virginia because I am leaving for Philadelphia in the morning. I leave 6:40 am. Yes, it is early but it was the only bus I could get. I wasn't able to get one later. I pretty much spent the whole day with Travis looking around for something he could get for Jessica as a birthday present. It was fun trying to see what we could get her. I bought a card that I thought she would like. It's pretty and the message is so sweet. It sounded like something I would say to her. (smiles) Anyway, after Travis' 7:00 class got out, he drove me back to my friend's house where we hung out for an hour or so talking to Jessica and looking around on the computer. That was really fun. Yes, tonight is hard but I think tomorrow morning is going to be even harder. Travis is taking me to the bus station so we'll be saying our good-byes to each other. I feel like I'm welling up already. I was hoping I wouldn't cry for real after that dream I had, but this coming up is definitely an emotional moment for me. I'm not sure how I'll contain it all. I'll just be praying that I'll survive the little trip down to the station! (sighs) I have to keep reminding myself "God knows what He's doing. He has it all under control." Hopefully I'll be reminding myself that constantly when I leave.

Dear Lord, thank you so much for everything. Thank you for bringing me to Liberty where I got to know some very dear people that I now hold close to my heart. Watch over everyone I know and their families. Cover them with your love and grace, Father. May your light shine within each one of them so bright that others can't deny that you are the True and Living God. I love you so much, Jesus. Keep reminding me that you have a purpose for me whether it be at home, in Lynchburg or maybe even in Roanoke Rapids. I don't know what you have set up for me, but I know it will be your plan to prosper me and not to harm me. Your plan will give me a future and a hope. May I never forget that. Thank you Father God, my One True Inspiration. I am so in love with you. In Jesus' Mighty Name I pray, amen. (1:20 am)

A Moment

When I wake up in the morning, I'm usually uplifted and ready to start my day, but this morning was a rough one for me. I woke up crying to a dream I had last night. This dream was set pretty much to this present time when I'm about to leave Liberty University. In this dream I was with my friend Travis and we were hanging out and having fun like we always do when suddenly I start crying right in front of him! I just sat down and started crying. When he saw me crying, he sat down next to me and held me close telling me it was going to be ok. We sat there for about 30 minutes! When I woke up, I cried and I felt like I couldn't stop. Is this dream showing me how much I'm going to miss him?? Yes, I like him. There I said it, but I like his girlfriend too. Jessica and I are such good friends and the last thing I want to do is get in the way of the beautiful relationship she has with him. I never thought I'd face this kind of problem in my life. It's quite rough. I've been quite reluctant to put this up because I don't know what Travis would think if he read this. I know one thing though; I don't want to start crying in front of him for real. I don't know what he would think or do. It makes me nervous to think about that. I just hope that if he eventually reads this blog, it won't change things between us. He's one of the dearest friends I have in the world and a real blessing in my life. To be honest, my life changed dramatically when he stepped into my life. It's as if God has blessed me with a guardian angel.

Dear Lord, please help me to keep myself under control. You know all about me and you know my needs better than anyone else. Help me to keep focused on you at all times. I love you so much, Jesus. You're the true reason I live. You are my One and only Inspiration! I pray this in Jesus' Name, amen. (5:01 pm)

A Time of Lessons Learned

Well, so much has happened over the past couple of weeks. All this time I thought I was standing on my faith when I came back to school, but as it turns out, it was all about my will, what I wanted to do. I wasn't focusing on what God was trying to tell me and the results of that put quite a damper on things. Ever since I got back to Liberty, I was trying to find someone to co-sign for my loan so I could complete financial check-in for this semester but to no avail. This upcoming Monday, my classes will be dropped and I will have to go back home to Philadelphia. My mom called me this morning and told me that I should just come on home. At first I didn't want to believe her, but I knew in my heart that she was right. (Updating today) Despite all that is happening, I believe God has given me peace about this whole situation. I've had one of the best weekends ever. This past weekend was College For a Weekend and I had two weekenders in my room. It was really cool. The first one was Nadya from Ashville, North Carolina and the other was Karen from Pennsylvania. I forgot exactly what part. I didn't get to exchange contact info with Karen unfortunately, but I did get to do that with Nadya. I can't wait to keep in contact with her when I'm at home.:o) This weekend is also going to be very special because my dear friend Travis is taking me down to Roanoke Rapids, NC so I can minister with the song I wrote over break at his church. That is going to be the best weekend ever! I'm so excited!! See how I am here? No matter what is happening around me, I have learned to "count it all joy." (James 1:2) I truly thank God for all that has happened whether positive or negative. It has taught me to be happy no matter how dire the circumstances are.

Dear Jesus, I thank you so much for everything. I thank you for your faithfulness and your mercy. You died on the cross and shed your precious blood so that I could live. I truly don't deserve that. I am so unworthy of your grace and yet, you love me so much. Thank you also for teaching me what it really means to "count it all joy." May I keep on seeking after you daily. May I never stray away from your loving arms. I want to be in them forevermore. I love you so much, Jesus. You are the One I can count on during the hard times and happy times. In Your Mighty and Matchless Name I pray, amen. (2/16/07 - 2/19/07, 12:25 pm)