My gosh! So much has happened, I don't even know where to begin. I guess I'll start with this. For now, Travis and I aren't pursuing a relationship and we still remain good friends. I'll write another blog later in the week about how that came to be. For now, I'll stick to the current events. Lately, Travis and I have been having some really good conversations. We talk about so much! We're still really good friends. Like I stated one time; we're so close, it's crazy! We know each other so well and we have so much in common. Emphasis on SO MUCH! (sighs) I said it before and I'll say it again; I feel like I've come too close to finding the one I know I'll love and care for the rest of my life. Have I truly found my soulmate? Is this really the person I'm supposed to be with? Right now, I know I want that to be so but I also know without a doubt that God is not through with me yet. I truly desire to serve God during my singleness as much as possible. I'm just getting started; being a keyboardist at Crown of Life Ministries, writing praise songs, making and selling greeting cards, and of course, my dance ministry. All this is just the beginning! God has made that quite clear to me. So what if it took me 25 years to get to this point? As far as I'm concerned, it has all been well worth it. There is still a lot to learn but I know I'll get through. Why? Because "I can do all things through Christ which strengthens me!" (Phil. 4:13)
As far as Travis and I are concerned, I just hope and pray that both of us will have the patience and the strength to conquer all. I know without a doubt that we have something. We just have to keep trusting in God and not get ahead of ourselves. One thing I want him to do is to just be patient with me. I appreciate how much he has been so far. For all I know, it could go all the way to the time I graduate college or beyond. I don't know how long it'll take. I really don't but I'm quite sure when God tells me it's time, I will know without a hint of doubt. Here's another thing I'm sure of; I feel like I've found my worship partner. (smiles) My mind simply bursts with new ideas these days and I have dreams about our ministry together as a team. I mean, heck! We've even named our group already! TNT - Dynomite for Jesus! Gosh, I love the sound of that! (laughs) I really want that to happen. Who knows? It just might. I guess I'll just keep on praying about it. I know one thing though; Travis and I share such a beautiful friendship and I never want it to end. I've prayed long and hard quite a bit of my life for a best friend and look at who God sent into my life! I'm so thankful and I praise my Heavenly Father for this dear person. Travis is without a doubt that best friend I was praying for. (smiles)
My dear Heavenly Father, You are so awesome!! It truly amazes me how much You love me. I love You so much and I strive every day to give You all the glory, honor and praise forevermore in all I do. Father God, thank You so much for sending Travis into my life. I know there has to be a reason behind it. I'm quite sure You didn't have us meet for nothing. I pray Lord that You'll just bless Travis in a special way. I pray that You'll put Your loving arms around him and keep him safe wherever he goes. Bless his family and his pastor. May heavenly blessings shower over them. May Your love be shown brightly in their lives. Thank You Jesus. I sincerely pray for focus in my life. You've brought me so far already. Show me what I'm supposed to do now, Jesus. I am ready to listen. I pray that Your love and mercy will be shown through me and in me no matter where I am. May it just be so evident that I belong to You.....so much so, it can't be denied. Lead me on to where I need to go next. I await Your guiding hand. Thank You Jesus. I praise and thank You so much for all You're doing and are about to do. I live to praise Your name in every aspect of my life. Of course, it's not my life but You living Your life through me. May I never forget that. I just give Your name praise, honor and glory forevermore. In Jesus' precious Name I pray, amen! (9:33 pm)
